he's too good for her;

he's too good for her.
i'm his type.
he loves me more.
stay away from him.


grr.. that girl needs to shut up.

kevin jonas you're mine. >:]

what a dream.

Christian Ninjadrops and Happyslip were at my house.
It was FANTASTIC. xD

valentines day;

I should be thankful for people who love each other.
Seeing pictures of people being together since January
kind of gets old and makes you think..What has this
holiday become?!
You hear girls bitching about how her boyfriend didn't
get her something or whatever. Or somethign stupid
like that. Or how teh boyfriend feels so guilty that he
doesn't have the budget to spent on the "woman he's gonna
marry, or the mother of his future 200 children"
I might sound like the cynic that hates
Valentines day, but I'm not. I'm perfectly happy
with all those people and my life.I dislike how
Valentine's Day became a hallmark
holiday about giving cards, roses, bears, and
any dorky thing.

Why can't people just say, "I love you. So do you wanna
go out and just sit outside and watch clouds with me?"
I'm not much of a person for movie dates and mushy junk like that.

I was gonna go out with a friend tonight.
My parents just ruined my plans with much more
drama that doesn't need to ruin the moments of love
of friends. I hate it....RUINING MY WEEKEND.
Deep frustration here. I want to go runaway to the hills.
I hope my friend reads this and understands why I'm totally bummed.
My friend's giving me this guilt trip. I'm gonna make it up. I promise.



Apart from the crappy holiday of "fake love",
I'm gonna walk to Target or Rite Aid and go buy something I totally
don't need..like a jock strap or something totally not
"Arleen-esque".I need to get out.

I realize I'm not happy with my life anymore.
I need to be someone else for a day. Some kind of change.
I can't enjoy my life as I used to. There's too much drama
and things to think about. There are too many people to please
and make sure you're gonna feel accepted by them.
It's hard to be yourself when you're trying to impress people.
I hope my boyfriend appreciates me and gets the hint.

I can't have a normal life right now. Drama Llama.
I feel like crying because of what's going on in my life.
I dont' have a freedom.

there's something i gotta say to you;

but i'm so afraid of what you'll do.

except it's not that way that aj sings it.
ugh. i hate how i feel.
i look happy, i give off that vibe.
but she knew..she sensed it..
"Your mind looks like it's not here.
Maybe it's your heart." -LB
yeah she sounds right.
that day i dreaded track practice
but the outcome came better than expected.
still sore anyways.

my heart aches.
sometimes, i think i prevent myself from
having fun to protect fromthe mindset that
"it's been done.what's next on the list of repetition?"
my internal playlist of songs
i've heard and never heard play
shuffle. repeat. shuffle.
one day i hear
"Happy Feet" -Dean Martin..
another comes"Better that We Break" -Maroon 5.


The simple poetry that you read
you probably cannot relate to.
Only until you really really
try to analyze and feel it.
It's when it gets to you.

Sometimes..I wish.
Sometimes..I don't wanna feel deep.
Other times.. I wanna be me, Arleen and nobody else.
Not a girlfriend, not your bestfriend or sister.
At times..I act happy so you can feel happy too.
Most of the time..I don't want you to worry about me.
I never want to be that burden.
All the time..I want to be that free bird.

You think you know me. You don't.
A response is, "I know I know." But you don't.
Not until you experienced it.
you can never experience me.

i wish i knew.

why can't friends tell you plans before they call afterschool. it's okay.

i wish i knew. i rather be having lunch with friends then spent another day eating
spam and rice.

watched W;t in English class.
love it.

i dream of jeanie;

damn it ms. bogovich. i got couplets in my mind.


i hope he knows how much i still love him.
his soft touch and the feel of his skin.
i had a dream of his image just last night.
we were together and he was my light.
when he appears in my life i can't stand
that we can't be together in the sand.
it's a horrible sight when our eyes meet.
it's hard too look with eyes on my feet.

i only wish that everything would be alright.
i listened to aj rafael last night, so i had a dream of
ndtitanlady, tsud123, ajrafael, and jaashten. somehow
he was there and i'm guessing he was following me.
i loved it, but it was a little depressing. ugh!
heartbreak hotel.the story of my life.

letter whoa-man!

i just got home from the Link Crew Ice Cream Social. when I got home, i looked in the mail tray and saw a letter. a letter from my dearest sister gone away to college. it feels good to know she still loves me. blog more later!