there's something i gotta say to you;

but i'm so afraid of what you'll do.

except it's not that way that aj sings it.
ugh. i hate how i feel.
i look happy, i give off that vibe.
but she knew..she sensed it..
"Your mind looks like it's not here.
Maybe it's your heart." -LB
yeah she sounds right.
that day i dreaded track practice
but the outcome came better than expected.
still sore anyways.

my heart aches.
sometimes, i think i prevent myself from
having fun to protect fromthe mindset that
"it's been done.what's next on the list of repetition?"
my internal playlist of songs
i've heard and never heard play
shuffle. repeat. shuffle.
one day i hear
"Happy Feet" -Dean Martin..
another comes"Better that We Break" -Maroon 5.


The simple poetry that you read
you probably cannot relate to.
Only until you really really
try to analyze and feel it.
It's when it gets to you.

Sometimes..I wish.
Sometimes..I don't wanna feel deep.
Other times.. I wanna be me, Arleen and nobody else.
Not a girlfriend, not your bestfriend or sister.
At times..I act happy so you can feel happy too.
Most of the time..I don't want you to worry about me.
I never want to be that burden.
All the time..I want to be that free bird.

You think you know me. You don't.
A response is, "I know I know." But you don't.
Not until you experienced it.
you can never experience me.

i wish i knew.

why can't friends tell you plans before they call afterschool. it's okay.

i wish i knew. i rather be having lunch with friends then spent another day eating
spam and rice.

watched W;t in English class.
love it.